I love that I serve a God who works in ways that I don’t understand. Why? Well, it’s pretty simple really. You see, I don’t see the point in serving (worshiping) something I understand because if I get it all, what’s the point in putting that thing/person/being above myself? I know that I am broken and a hot mess, so if what I am serving is no better than my mess, what hope is there?
Here’s my point. God works in great and mysterious ways. And as His ways are better than my ways, I need to get past my broken self and look to he that can put me back together.
God and I went running tonight. That may sound funny, but I’m serious. I hate running. I know, I know, you shouldn’t hate, but I really really hate running…with a deep simmering passion. It hurts; it’s not fun; and quite frankly, no matter how much I run, I still suck at it (I’m ecstatic when I can run a mile without stopping…I’m such a hypocrite as a coach but oh well). But as I went out for a run tonight after fighting a migraine this morning and coming off of 3 nights of very minimal sleep due to a 6 month old with a cold, I wasn’t expecting much. I wasn’t expecting to really run, I was just getting in some semblance of exercise. After the first 1/4 mile, I laid it on the table. I told God that I have talked a lot lately. I have complained, I have petitioned, he knew my heart and those things that were heavy on my heart so I needed to stop talking and actually take the time to listen. For the next part of my run, I was literally just running with God. I felt his presence with me and we just jogged together. There was no amazing revelation, but it was time basking in his glory–even while doing something that I typically despise. Then he spoke.
God began comforting me, giving me words to guide me and ultimately give me a prophesy for my family. The stress that this week and weekend had built up melted away and I was able to find myself in the presence of my Savior and my King.
There are still things that I must do to see the blessings that God promised, but as I seek him, he draws nearer to me. As I rest in Him, he will take my burden. As I find peace in Him, the path and direction that we are so desperately seeking will be made clear to us. And in turn, God will anoint our family.
I have an answer and I know that I have a long way to go, but more than anything, I know that my God is with me. I know that I am a living temple for the Spirit and he has poured his Spirit out on me. And for that I can rejoice and be glad.
All glory to GOD in the highest and peace be to men.