Everyone who has a passion for something can probably relate to that feeling that seems to start at your core and spread out through your entire being until it is leaking out of your fingertips. Whatever that passion is…you just have to do it. Until you do, you feel antsy and incomplete. That’s how I feel about writing right now. However, I also seem to find myself without great inspiration. Go figure. But, what I do when I feel the need to write and find myself blocked, I get on the computer (or pull out one of my 5000 notebooks lying inconspicuously around the house) and start writing. It usually begins without great direction but, and I know I say this a lot, I love that I serve a God who is the one who gave me these passions and can direct his truths through them even without me knowing how when I began.
John is one of my favorites of the gospels. I love the poetic nature in which it is presented. How it opens is a prime example of that.
In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.
The same was in the beginning with God.
All things were made by him; and without him was not any thing made that was made.
In him was life; and the life was the light of men.
And the light shineth in darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not. (John 1:1-5 KJV)
The Word of God is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. We can trust it, we can depend on it, and we can believe it with every fiber of our being. What I love is that even when I don’t quite understand it, I know it holds truth and God will use those truths in my life. Maybe not today, but someday I will understand. I may be terrible at being able to tell you where a verse is from, but I am storing those truths in my heart for God to reveal their meaning to me. Not my interpretation of them, what they actually say but with full understanding. We are warned time and again that those who read the Bible for alternative reasons will not understand. Even in this first introduction in John verse 5 says, “And the light shines in the darkness; and the darkness comprehended it not.” (other versions say that the darkness has not overcome it).
When I am reading a good, I mean a really good, edge of your seat, all 10 of your nails are bitten down to the nail bed, stay up until 4 am even when little kids will be up in 3 hours, good book I find that I speed read through certain sections. Right as you build up to that pinnacle conflict, until you meet resolution…I’m a mess. Depending on the book (and the day), I may put movies on for the kids all day to ensure that I find out the resolution. I get so vested in it that I’ll take the book with me everywhere (I honestly think the shower may be the only exception and even then I will at times swap showers for baths just so I can keep reading). I know, it’s a little…well, psychotic, but I just have to know what happens!
The Bible has given me the resolution. God’s Word prevails and truth will win. We already know it. So when I am in the midst of conflict and everything around me seems to be falling apart at the seams, I know it will be okay because I have read the Word and have read it to understand and to know God more. And the more I seek to know God, the more he will reveal himself to me.