Aud Lang Syne

A year ago, my family and I were still living in Orlando. Florida– not in Texas.

A year ago, I never dreamed that I would actually have a physical copy of my book not only completed, but published by a highly reputable Christian publisher.

A year ago, I never imagined all of the spiritual growth I would experience in only a year’s time.

A year seems like so long ago–distant memories dancing through my mind more like a dream than a reality already lived. But in that time my dreams began to materialize into reality. Those ideas which seemed impossible are starting to form into a career that I only ever dreamed of.

As we close 2014 and usher in 2015, it is easy to default to the old resolutions that never make it past noon on January 1st.

  • Lose x amount of pounds and have the body I had when I was 18
  • exercise daily and eat only healthy foods–no exceptions
  • never speak out of anger–especially when I’m tired, sick, exhausted…
  • memorize the entire Bible–every last word

I’ve never taken to the idea of New Year’s resolutions. That’s not to say that I don’t see the advantage of setting goals and the new year is as good a time as any to do just that. I just don’t see the point of making goals that I know the second I make them I am going to break them. That’s not to say I don’t set God-sized goals and dreams–I just trust God for them rather than myself.

Would I like to lose another 5 pounds or so, work out daily to improve my health, and have enough will-power to not love Chick-fil-a and peppermint ice cream as much as I do? Of course, but I also believe that everything should be done in moderation–including the good stuff. Focusing on my weight versus my health clouds my self-image and causes me to be more judgmental of my post-baby body than I should ever be. Forcing myself to work out every day for an hour would actually cause more stress than it would release. A better option would be to set practical goals that don’t just add one more thing onto my list. And Chick-fil-a is just a gift from God so…you know, moderation.

But my goals and dreams are more than that. They are an expression of my soul. They are those things that I admit only to myself, for fear that I will get laughed at if I were to tell them to anyone else. Things like getting my book published. Things like my longing to become a speaker that empowers women in their identity in Christ. Those are dreams that I think about at times like New Years Eve. Those are the dreams that I can not achieve through any power of my own, but only by God’s grace and will for my life. Those are the dreams that I must continually give back to God, knowing that whatever His will is for my dreams, that will be the very best thing for me.

What are your impossible dreams? You know, those things you only admit to yourself and God? I want to challenge you to take some time and pray about those dreams. The biggest challenge I face is to truly submit them back to God, knowing that He may choose to change my path. But I know that if God doesn’t want that for me, I shouldn’t want it for myself either.

I pray that you all have a blessed 2015.

If you’d like prayer and accountability in your dreams, please feel free to share them in the comments! I’d love to pray for my readers as we enter the new year!


2 thoughts on “Aud Lang Syne

    • Not always easily. I spend a lot of time praying and consciously (verbally) giving them back to God (basically saying that this is what I want but God I want to honor you above anything else, so if this isn’t from you-take away my desire for it).
      I find that I have to do this a lot and there are still treats and disappointments but in those moments, I remember the promises God has previously spoken to me. Right now I’m resting in the promise find in Isaiah 30:21. God’s got our back 🙂
      I also rely on the wisdom, discernment, and prayer of friends who intercede on my behalf.

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